Being Away from God Through my Experience of Sexual Abuse from the Jesuit Fr. Ruben Tanseco.

My experience of sexual abuse from Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. has led me away from God. It is ironic that my experience of sexual abuse was done by a Jesuit who would give retreats and promote the Spiritual Exercises. I cannot reconcile my experience of sexual abuse from a Jesuit with his task of showing the way to God through the Spiritual Exercises. As I remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco sucked my dick, all the more that I distance myself from God. His sucking my dick does not represent a path to God. As I remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco fondled my genitals, more and more I socially exclude myself and become more comfortable in isolation. As I remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco masturbated my penis until I ejaculate, I experience being overpowered and dominated. I lost my dignity as a human person. I lost my faith in a Church I wanted to serve as a priest.

23 thoughts on “Being Away from God Through my Experience of Sexual Abuse from the Jesuit Fr. Ruben Tanseco.

  1. I’m so sorry to hear of the abuse you endured on the part of once trusted individuals. I believe my brother also may have been molested by a priest. Often this priest would spend time with my brother one on one and even took him out to expensive dinners, kind of like dates. One day apparently he came home with a look of rage on his face, and he wasn’t the same since. My father was abusive, so my brother already had rage issues, but it became over-the-top after that time. He wasn’t the same, anymore. Even now, his anger is palpable. It’s difficult to be around him.

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  2. That is so very sad. I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. Yes, we keep hearing about such cases often.
    All god men aren’t same my friend. And all god men aren’t godly. I sincerely hope and pray that you find your peace.
    God has to be found within ourselves and not in any temple or church.

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      1. Yes. That is the only way. Pls do your best not to dwell too much in the past. I know it is easier said than done. One day at a time. One step at a time.
        Nature will take its course for that Fr.

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  3. How are you now? I cannot bear pressing the LIKE button because your experience has enraged me so much.

    This ungodly and bestial act should not keep you away from the Lord, our Lord. Take refuge in His Power and Words.

    Also, you may consider taking necessary legal actions against your violator. You can always vindicate yourself and have the one who wronged you punished by law. For sure your family will support you.

    GOD IS WITH YOU on this, brother. I’ll include you in my prayers.

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  4. Such a horrible experience you have endured. Is Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J., still in a position of authority within the church? I assume you brought your sexual assaults by the hands of this “false prophet” to the attention of law enforcement? What you’ve been through is a tragedy, but one which can be overcome. I encourage you to seek counseling, if you haven’t already done so. Please understand, God didn’t do this to you…Satan did. Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J., is not a man of God, but rather a pawn of Satan. Take the pain, suffering, and humiliation you’ve been through and turn it around for the good of those who have been through the same. Let your pain, suffering, and humiliation make you stronger, so you may take a negative situation and turn it around for others who need to hear of your experiences, and witness how you persevered. I pray you find peace and return to our Lord. May God be with you always, for this I pray in the precious name of Jesus. Amen.

    Brother Bill King, Pastor
    Disciples of Christ

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  5. There is Never any excuse for the acts of sexual abuse. I find some solace in the Words of God. First knowing that mans heart and deeds are evil (Jeremiah 17:9; John 3:19) and they can not control their actions and second knowing God is sovereign on all things (Job 42:2; Ephesians 1:11), yes even this. Quoting Kris Kristofferson it seems we all want the answer “Why me Lord”; one that we may never get this side of Glory.

    Now our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God, even our Father, which hath loved us, and hath given us everlasting consolation and good hope through grace, comfort your heart, and establish you in every good word and work. (II Thessalonians 2:16-17) – Chap Mike

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  6. This is the set time for your life and freedom, God is fighting your battle, causing you to stand out and letting your dream come true. Don’t focus your past, it is done, and don’t continue to reliving on what God had put to an end. He is God of justice! God has more in store for you; get up and look up with God and quit thinking of that Priest had done you wrong. God bless you.

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