Being Away from God Through my Experience of Sexual Abuse from the Jesuit Fr. Ruben Tanseco.

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My experience of sexual abuse from Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. has led me away from God. It is ironic that my experience of sexual abuse was done by a Jesuit who would give retreats and promote the Spiritual Exercises. I cannot reconcile my experience of sexual abuse from a Jesuit with his task of showing the way to God through the Spiritual Exercises. As I remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco sucked my dick, all the more that I distance myself from God. His sucking my dick does not represent a path to God. As I remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco fondled my genitals, more and more I socially exclude myself and become more comfortable in isolation. As I remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco masturbated my penis until I ejaculate, I experience being overpowered and dominated. I lost my dignity as a human person. I lost my faith in a Church I wanted to serve as a priest.

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34 thoughts on “Being Away from God Through my Experience of Sexual Abuse from the Jesuit Fr. Ruben Tanseco.”

  1. I’m so sorry to hear of the abuse you endured on the part of once trusted individuals. I believe my brother also may have been molested by a priest. Often this priest would spend time with my brother one on one and even took him out to expensive dinners, kind of like dates. One day apparently he came home with a look of rage on his face, and he wasn’t the same since. My father was abusive, so my brother already had rage issues, but it became over-the-top after that time. He wasn’t the same, anymore. Even now, his anger is palpable. It’s difficult to be around him.

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  4. That is so very sad. I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. Yes, we keep hearing about such cases often.
    All god men aren’t same my friend. And all god men aren’t godly. I sincerely hope and pray that you find your peace.
    God has to be found within ourselves and not in any temple or church.

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      1. Yes. That is the only way. Pls do your best not to dwell too much in the past. I know it is easier said than done. One day at a time. One step at a time.
        Nature will take its course for that Fr.

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  5. How are you now? I cannot bear pressing the LIKE button because your experience has enraged me so much.

    This ungodly and bestial act should not keep you away from the Lord, our Lord. Take refuge in His Power and Words.

    Also, you may consider taking necessary legal actions against your violator. You can always vindicate yourself and have the one who wronged you punished by law. For sure your family will support you.

    GOD IS WITH YOU on this, brother. I’ll include you in my prayers.

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    1. thanks for the words of support and for the prayers, maam tina. another sad thing is that my family have no knowledge of my experience of sexual abuse. this is a lonely struggle…..

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  6. Such a horrible experience you have endured. Is Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J., still in a position of authority within the church? I assume you brought your sexual assaults by the hands of this “false prophet” to the attention of law enforcement? What you’ve been through is a tragedy, but one which can be overcome. I encourage you to seek counseling, if you haven’t already done so. Please understand, God didn’t do this to you…Satan did. Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J., is not a man of God, but rather a pawn of Satan. Take the pain, suffering, and humiliation you’ve been through and turn it around for the good of those who have been through the same. Let your pain, suffering, and humiliation make you stronger, so you may take a negative situation and turn it around for others who need to hear of your experiences, and witness how you persevered. I pray you find peace and return to our Lord. May God be with you always, for this I pray in the precious name of Jesus. Amen.

    Brother Bill King, Pastor
    Disciples of Christ

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  7. There is Never any excuse for the acts of sexual abuse. I find some solace in the Words of God. First knowing that mans heart and deeds are evil (Jeremiah 17:9; John 3:19) and they can not control their actions and second knowing God is sovereign on all things (Job 42:2; Ephesians 1:11), yes even this. Quoting Kris Kristofferson it seems we all want the answer “Why me Lord”; one that we may never get this side of Glory.

    Now our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God, even our Father, which hath loved us, and hath given us everlasting consolation and good hope through grace, comfort your heart, and establish you in every good word and work. (II Thessalonians 2:16-17) – Chap Mike

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  8. This is the set time for your life and freedom, God is fighting your battle, causing you to stand out and letting your dream come true. Don’t focus your past, it is done, and don’t continue to reliving on what God had put to an end. He is God of justice! God has more in store for you; get up and look up with God and quit thinking of that Priest had done you wrong. God bless you.

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  9. My brother, I can’t even presume to know what to say or how to help you, except through my prayer, which you will surely have. And it may be impossible for you now to really HEAR a Scripture, but sometimes focusing on just a phrase, a word, can begin to help. I’m thinking of Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the thoughts that I have towards you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” (KJV) Some versions read more like, ‘a hope and a future.’ Try not to push the Lord Jesus away. And along the lines of what Pastor Bill said earlier, you will eventually see your situation turned around for much good. Give it time. My faith & prayers are with you.

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  11. I am so sorry to hear about this. You don’t know how sorry I am. I am hoping, for your sake, that this horrific experience does not turn you away from God completely. I grew up Catholic and I am well aware of the continual cover-up of pedophilic priests. The Church has always been a corrupt institution and who knows how long these molestations have been taking place. However, as one person above mentioned, the Church and God are two separate entities. I hope that you find yourself back to God through therapy and your own personal healing. Wishing you the best on this difficult journey. I know you can do it.

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  12. I have been praying for you since you followed my blog. I’ve read several of your posts here, and my heart breaks for you. I pray that you do not lose your faith in God, but instead turn to him with your desperation, ask him to help you through this. He is faithful, he is always faithful.
    I pray also for the man who inflicted this harm on you, that God would confront him, humble him and make him to fully know and repent for these horrible sins.
    I urge you also to pray, for healing and for the Holy Spirit to fill you with His peace. You must also pray for this man, you must ask God to help you forgive him. This does not make the sin he committed against you right, but it allows you to give the anger, grief, hatred, nightmares and all that burden that you carry to God. Let God carry it for you and know that no matter what happens here on earth, the man who harmed you will face God’s wrath and justice – which is far worse than any punishment men or governments could place on him.
    I will continue to pray for you.
    The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. (Philippians 4:23)

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  13. Sorry to hear of your painful experience in the hands of someone who was supposed to love and nurture you towards God, rather he pushed you away from God. I pray that you find healing.
    One thing I know, is that Jesus Christ loves you dearly and cares about you. God did not tell that man to abuse you, he was obviously demon possessed.
    Please give God a chance to manifest himself to you and grant you healing in Jesus mighty name.
    Abba Father I pray for your son Toting alipis today, Lord he was terribly abused by someone who was supposed to protect him and is hurting right now, Lord please for the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, grant him healing today. Heal him physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually and every area that he is hurting in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

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  14. The abuse of power and manipulation against a fellow brother is inexcusable. I hope you can seek Jesus for the healing His hands hold like I could. That man did not operate within God’s will. I pray for your restoration my friend.

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