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Peter and His Catch

The Gospel for the Fifth Sunday in Ordinary Time is about Jesus teaching the people while sitting on Peter’s boat. This scene reminds me of Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. presiding a Sunday mass in the morning and suck my dick in the evening. After preaching to the people during a Sunday mass and sucking my dick after saying Mass is just amusing to me.

After teaching the people, Jesus told Peter to lower his net for a catch. This scene reminds me of Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. stripping me of my clothes for an easy catch of genitals which he would fondle. Indeed, it was a great catch.

At one point, Peter knelt before Jesus and told him, “Depart from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man.” I would imagine Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. kneeling front of me sucking my dick. He was demonstrating his sinfulness and the anomaly of his priesthood as he sucked my dick with pleasure and enjoyment.

Eventually, Jesus told Peter that he will catch men. This Gospel is often read during the ordination of a priest. A priest is designated to catch men. As a priest, Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. did not just catch me, but also suck my dick. What a beautiful Gospel we have for the Fifth Sunday in Ordinary Time.

Contemplation on the Love of God

The goal of this contemplation on the love of God is to have a profound experience of such love as manifested in my daily experience. As I reflect on God’s gift to me, I would always remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. sexually abused me. It was a profound experience of the love of God that led me to lose my faith in Him. As I reflect on the theme of God’s self-giving in Jesus, I cannot help but recall how Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. fondled my genitals and make my penis hard. It was such a profound experience of how God is self-giving. As I reflect on the limitless quality of God’s love, I would remember the warmth of Fr. Ruben Tanseco’s mouth and the pleasure I feel as he sucked my dick. God’s love is indeed limitless. As I reflect on God’s continuing work in the world, I would remember how Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. would masturbate my dick until I ejaculate. It was indeed a manifestation of how God continues to be at work in the world.

The Heart of Jesus

It was at dawn the other day that I had a bad dream involving Jesuits. In that rather sexual dream, I encountered a Jesuit in the lobby of Loyola House of Studies. I was shocked to see a Jesuit who took out his dick in a public place. What I saw was a huge Jesuit dick. I woke up gasping and running short of breath. The dream reminded me of how Fr. Ruben Tanseco, SJ sexually abused me. Sleeping with him in one bed, I remember how Fr. Tanseco would insert his had under my short pants. He would reach for my still soft dick. Holding my dick is his way of consecrating himself to the heart of Jesus.

As Fr. Tanseco continued to hold my dick, it would become hard. He spends time to play with my hard dick. He must be discerning his innermost feelings and following the movement of the Holy Spirit as he plays with my hard dick.

The next step in his sexual routine is to strip me of everything I wear and take delight in my naked body with his hands still holding my hard dick. He would lick my nipples and fondle my balls too. The sensation is pleasurable. It speaks of the heart of Fr. Tanseco which is the heart of a Jesuit that is in tune with the heart of Jesus.

Fr. Tanseco would not miss to suck my dick. I can feel the warmth of his mouth as my dick is inside it. In this way, he mirrors the loving God in all His tenderness.

The final act is when Fr. Tanseco would masturbate my hard dick. His every stroke of my hard dick speaks a lot of how the Jesuit charism is rooted and grounded in the love of God. As I finally would reach my climax and ejaculate, I am able to experience the breadth and length, the height and depth of Christ’s love. The pleasure of ejaculation allow me to experience God’s love that surpasses all human knowledge and I am filled with the very fullness of God. It is how best the Jesuit Fr. Tanseco is when he sexually abused me.

The Dream I Cannot Interpret

Just recently, I saw myself in a dream. I was inside a chapel. The mass is about to start. To my surprise, Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. appeared in my dream as the main celebrant. I can clearly see Fr. Primitivo Viray, S.J. as a concelebrant. The mass started. Fr. Tanseco delivered the homily. The liturgy of the Eucharist followed and the time for Communion. I did not fall in line to receive communion. All along, I was not practicing any religion for years already. I even found it strange to see myself inside a chapel. Perhaps, Fr. Tanseco noticed that I did not receive communion. He went to me and offered me communion. I refused. Everything was a dream.

I woke up to prepare breakfast while pondering on the dream. I know fully well that Fr. Tanseco was an advocate of social justice. He would say mass in a chapel now known as Kristong Hari Parish along Commonwealth Avenue. The church goers there are poor people and mostly squatters. In sexually abusing me, he has done a lot of injustice to me. He must be feeling guilty for the injustice he has done to me.

I am just struck at my refusal to receive communion from Fr. Tanseco. I cannot afford to receive communion from somebody who destroyed me, from somebody who had done injustice to me.

I am also surprised to see Fr. Viray in my dream. I will explore this aspect soon.