I came across with a passage from the letter of Paul to the Romans (Rom. 5:3). I smiled when I read something about rejoicing in suffering. St. Paul can be amusing sometimes. Reading the passage led me to remember the sexual abuse I experienced from the hands of the Jesuit priest, Fr. Ruben Tanseco. The many times that Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. fondled my genitals led me to emotional suffering as I become an angry person. The many times that Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. put my penis into his mouth and sucked it led me to psychological suffering such that I often feel jittery and disoriented, and depressed. The many times that Fr. Ruben Tanseco, S.J. masturbated my penis until I ejaculate led me to spiritual suffering and the loss of my faith. The suffering caused by my experience of sexual abuse from this Jesuit is unnecessary suffering, a suffering I do not deserve. I find it ridiculous and absurd to think that suffering produces perseverance. The suffering that I am going through as a victim of sexual abuse by a Jesuit cannot be a cause for rejoicing. The suffering that I am going through as a victim of sexual abuse by a Jesuit is a suffering that deserves justice, not an insult and a threat.